Twenty eight
It's been a long year.
I went thru a difficult time in the relationship, one which, in the end, I was forced to let go.
It was not easy, mending this broken heart.
It made me rethink a lot about relationships, and whether I was actually going down the wrong path, in the first place.
And now, after almost a year, I can finally say it's ok, I forgive myself, and move on.
And yes, I still think about you, sometimes.
And that's ok too.
I made the big move back to the big city, a year of the long awaited transfer.
I initially requested for the transfer was because you were there, but I suppose the transfer came in a minute too late.
You were no longer here.
But I do not regret coming back.
As rocky as this stomping ground may be, I am here to walk my worth, and grow up.
Cause this, is just the beginning of my long career path.
And I AM READY.
I faced my worst nightmare this year.
Failing the exams, TWICE.
For a high end achiever like me, that was a big blow to the ego.
And yet, the entire experience was enriching.
I am now, more humble.
And more receptive to my own weaknesses.
And realize, that things, will not work the way I want it to....
If I do not work for it.
I cheated death this year.
I could've been badly injured in the accident, yet I wasn't.
God saved me for greater purposes.
This second chance, I will not let it go to waste.
I will be wiser, this time around.
Too much heartache, too much worries, too much what ifs.
But I'm glad that you guys were there every step of the way.
Thank you, for being there when I call in the middle of the night, crying.
Thank you, for taking the time and effort to make me laugh and smile again.
Thank you, for lending me a shoulder to cry on, and open arms ever ready for a hug.
To my small yet irreplaceable bunch of angels, I just wanted to say that I love you guys so, so much.
I am now 28.
And I am glad to declare, it was a very becoming year.
Hence, I am proud to say, I'm no longer THAT 27 year old.
I will not say that I am perfect, far from it, but to speak more of acceptance, that it's ok to be imperfect.
And the biggest revelation ever?
That others will STILL love me, despite my imperfections.
Because they SEE me, and beyond.
And know that I'm deserving, even if I don't vouch for myself.
Because they, BELIEVE in me.
And because they do, I should too.
"Because every woman deserves flowers on her birthday."
-Token of love from the best friend-
-jess, twenty eight-