It's never easy, being far away from the one you love.

Yet, I try, to be happy, to find meaning in life, and to love what I do each day.

But there are still those days where I feel like driving to the airport, jumping onto the next plane to kch, just to see you, for those mere, few, precious hours.

Missing you is an understatement.

Everyday things, that I used to take for granted, are now just greyish blurs, cause you're not here to help me colour them anymore.

And the fact, that all is beyond my control, pains me.

But maybe, this way, we'll appreciate each other more, and take those times where we get to be together, those far apart visits, to love each other, deeper.

There are millions of people in this world...
And yet, we managed to find each other, in the most unexpected of places.
I count that as a blessing.

So don't you go anywhere.








- jess, yours -

The happiest moment of my day:

Dying just 5 hours into the call...
And turning on the tap...
Realizing...
That there is, finally, a hot shower.


How easily contented, a person can be.


-jess, happy-

Went all things seem to go astray...

And the heart falls apart...

Then He says, "Look my child, the world still turns, and the day will come to an end. And tomorrow, it'll be another day, another promise. Hope, and persevere."

And so, I will.

- jess, hopeful -

I read this in the papers the other day:

"Love first. Live incidentally."


How true.

We tend to live, and search for love. And not realizing, that all along, it's the other way around.

To love others, to love self, to love the things that you do, to love what you do, and your life will, magically, fall together.

So go.
Love.

-jess-

Tell me why do the tears still fall?

I'm at a new chapter in my life.
I have nice bosses.
I am in the posting that I wanted.
I'm learning something new each day.
I talk to you on the phone daily.

Yet, it's not the same.
I come home, and the heart, these hands, are still empty.


So why do the tears still fall?

Maybe it because I miss you, too much.



- jess, missing you -