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Change is inevitable, but in it all, it's still... Just me =)

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“I laugh, I love, I hope, I try, I hurt, I need, I fear, I cry. And I know you do the same things too, So we're really not that different, me and you.” - Colin Raye

Archives

Nothing Saturday 27 March 2010 |

Day 40.



I failed my exam.

But all I could think about...

Is that it didn't hurt one bit...

Compared to losing you.


I know it sounds crazy....

But I feel nothing.

I don't feel sad. Or mad. Or angry.

I just feel.. nothing.

And it's been like that since you left.



Sigh.

I'm sorry I disappointed you.

But I promise I'll do better next time...

Because you, wanted me to pass.



And I will.



Jess


Tears Thursday 25 March 2010 |

Day 39.



I'm afraid to write...

Just because I don't want tears...

On top of my other tears.



And this pillow of mine?

Is never dry, anymore.



Jess

Remember Monday 22 March 2010 |

Day 36.



It's not that I don't want to let you go...

But I just don't know how.

How do you forget someone who has been there day and night with you for the past two years?

I don't know how to be cruel, like you.

So I'll rather remember, as painful as it might be...

Coz it'll be even more painful, to forget.



Jess

Anger Thursday 18 March 2010 |

Day 32.



I cannot comprehend...

How I can be so angry at you...

Yet still love you, at the same time.




Jess

28 Tuesday 16 March 2010 |

Day 28.



It's exactly a month since you've been gone.

And yet, it still feels like you're here.



It's not the absence that hurts.

It's the knowing, that you no longer want to be a part of my life because you are ashamed of me.

But it's the indifference, the not loving, yet not hating, that hurts me most.


I miss you.

But not the you that's now.

Because I, no longer, know who this person is anymore.



I miss the one who used to love me for who I am..

And aim to protect me from all harm.

That's what your name means, isn't it?

'To protect'.

But you failed.

Coz you didn't protect me from the worst pain of all...

Losing you.


One month has passed.

But if I have to live this way,

Why would it be still worth living?


-jess-

Erased Thursday 11 March 2010 |

Day 23.


I do not know how to react...

When I realized that you have erased all my pictures from your life...

As you have erased me.


It hurts.

And it is insulting.

That all I am to you....

Is nothing.


And I, for one, will not do the same.



Jess

Speak Monday 8 March 2010 |

Day 20.



It's somewhat comforting...

Yet painful...

To see your daily posts on fb, and know that you're ok and happy.


Yet I don't have the courage to write a comment...

Because I'm afraid...

That you'll hate me even more...

For not leaving you alone...

For good.


So as much as it hurts...

I can only read...

And can no longer speak.



Jess

Haunted Sunday 7 March 2010 |

Day 19.



It is not easy...

When I try to forget you...

And I see you in dreamland instead.




Jess

Sleep Thursday 4 March 2010 |

Day 16.

How do you sleep at night?

Because I can only sleep when I do what I usually do..

Imagining you, holding me.


That's the only way I sleep when you're not around...

And you, are not around anymore.



Jess